I am not a theologian. I am not a spiritual teacher.
I am somebody who got tired of religious answers that did not match reality and decided to work out what makes sense.
I did not set out to write theology. I started trying to make sense of existence because the traditional religious explanations I grew up with created more problems than they solved.
What was wrong with the answers?
They required you to stop asking at a particular point, and the point was always arbitrary.
Explanations of suffering that worked until you looked directly at any actual instance of suffering. Accounts of how things are that held together for one question and came apart on the second. Not obviously false. Simply built to be received instead of examined, and unable to survive being examined.
Nobody teaching them to me was being dishonest. Most of them had never taken the second step either, because the framework does not invite it and asking is treated as a failure of a different kind.
What I could not do was pretend the inconsistency was not there. That turned out to be less a virtue than a feature of how my brain is built.
Why did the diagnosis matter?
Because it explained forty years of an experience I had been interpreting as a character flaw.
I was diagnosed with AuADHD, autism and ADHD together, in my sixties. It finally explained why my brain works differently from most people’s, and that neurodivergent perspective probably contributes to whatever ability I have here.
An autistic brain does not comfortably hold an inconsistency. It is not a choice or a discipline. If two statements cannot both be true, that produces a persistent friction that does not resolve by deciding to move on. Most people can hold contradictory beliefs about important things without discomfort, which is a genuinely useful social capacity that I do not have.
For most of my life I understood that as being difficult. Getting the diagnosis in my sixties reframed decades of it, which is a strange experience to have that late.
What did the framework come out of?
Years of thinking about consciousness, suffering, relationships, and what it means to be human.
Not a revelation and not a study programme. A long accumulation of the same questions being turned over, mostly while doing something else, over a working life spent on technical systems where inconsistency has consequences you can measure.
That last part matters more than it might seem. Thirty-three years in enterprise technology teaches you that a model which does not account for the observed behavior is wrong, regardless of how elegant it is or how many people believe it. Applying the same standard elsewhere is not a philosophical position. It is a habit.
The book on this: God Is Everything is the framework that came out of years of thinking about consciousness, suffering and what it means to be human, offered on its merits instead of on authority.
Is this an argument against religion?
No, and the title invites the opposite reading.
It is an argument against accepting explanations that do not survive examination. That applies equally to confident secular accounts, which frequently have the same structure and the same instruction to stop asking at a convenient point.
The book is offered on its merits. I have no authority, no institutional position, and nothing to protect. If the framework is wrong somewhere, the correct response is to say where, and I would rather have that than agreement.
Why write it down?
Because the thinking was going to happen anyway and writing is how I find out what I think.
There is also a smaller reason and it is honest. I spent decades assuming I was the only person who found these explanations unsatisfying, because everybody around me appeared able to accept them. That assumption was wrong and it was lonely, and a book is the sort of thing that would have found me.
What is the actual position?
An answer that requires you to stop asking is not an answer. That applies to every side of this.
Inconsistency is information. If a model does not fit what you observe, the model is wrong.
Nobody has authority here. Including me, which is why the book argues instead of asserts.
The questions are worth keeping even without resolution. Living with an open question is available and it is underrated.
The discomfort is not a flaw. Mine turned out to be neurological, and for years I treated it as something wrong with me.
The framework in this book developed over a long time and I do not present it as settled.
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