What I Expected from Life

TL;DR: Nobody handed my generation the future we were promised. The Berlin Wall fell, a wristwatch outcomputed a room-sized mainframe, and the World Trade Center came down, none of it predicted. Meanwhile the lunar colony I confidently expected never arrived. This is a short inventory of what surprised me and what never showed up.

We sure do live in a fantastic era. The world has changed in ways I would never have predicted, and I have changed as well.

The things I never predicted

Some of the events I would never had predicted when I was a child include:

a. The fall of the Berlin wall and the collapse of the Soviet Union
b. A black man becoming president and a woman becoming Secretary of State.
c. PCs becoming so common that it’s hard to imagine life without one.
d. The collapse of the World Trade Center.
e. That I would buy a watch with more computing power (by several orders of magnitude) than in a room-sized computer when I was in college
f. That I would see a city (New Orleans) destroyed by a hurricane and the government completely drop the ball on helping them

The future that never arrived

On the other hand, I had some expectations that didn’t happen:

a. I expected the United States to establish a permanent lunar colony long ago
b. I expected us to send a manned mission to Mars by now
c. I expected someone to build a permanent underwater city
d. I expected nuclear power to become the main power source of the world

Twists, goals, and dreams

My life has had some unexpected twists as well. What I didn’t expect was:

a. Being a widower
b. Becoming a professional bellydance photographer
c. Becoming a complete nut about renaissance faire and bellydance
d. Becoming a serious computer geek

And, of course, I had some goals that didn’t happen:

a. I expected to be a professional, well published author by now
b. My goal when I was in elementary school was to be a professional geologist. I have not pursued that field at all.
c. I wanted to have a huge collection of rocks and gems
d. I expected to be a scientist

But I’ve made some new goals:

a. I would like to find a nice lady and settle down with her
b. To achieve the highest spiritual growth possible in my religion
c. To climb to the top of Mt San Gorgonio
d. To visit and photograph every Renaissance-type Faire in the US
e. To produce a truly huge, extremely professional bellydance event
f. To finish the four novels I am working on, get them published and actually have them sell well
g. To produce a large Renaissance faire

And I have a few places I’d like to travel:

a. I’d live to visit Iwo Jima, Tarawa, Hawaii, Turkey, Egypt, Switzerland, Rome, Iceland, Tonga and Antartica.
b. All of the national parks in the United States

And a few things I’d like to do:

a. To dance
b. To use the rapier (sword fighting)
c. To drum
d. Poser and Bryce (3D graphics programs), and PSP

There are still some people I’d like to meet, well, to really sit down with and have a real conversation:

a. Milla Jovovich
b. Rachel Brice, Mardi Love, Sashi, Ariellah, Zoe Jakes and all of the other big bellydance names)
c. Catherine Zeta Jones
d. William Shatner
e. Lucy Lawless
f. The president of the United States (whoever he or she is)

If I suddenly found myself with five million dollars after taxes, here’s what I’d do:

a. I’d gather up the very best bellydancers and produce a top-notch show
b. I’d create the perfect renaissance faire
c. I’d meet all my religious goals
d. I’d give half of it to charity
e. Help some of my friends meet their goals
f. Put on a truly good masquerade ball

And if I made some real money, say a hundred million dollars, I’d probably:

a. Buy a castle

Frequently Asked Questions

What did you expect from life as a child?
A lunar colony, mostly. I grew up certain the United States would have a permanent base on the moon, and instead I got a wristwatch with more computing power than a room-sized mainframe. The future arrived, just not the one advertised.
What surprised you the most?
The Berlin Wall falling and the Soviet Union collapsing. Nothing in my childhood suggested either was possible, and then both happened, along with events like September 11 that nobody sane would have predicted.
Do you still set new goals?
Constantly. The essay lists them: places to travel, things to learn, people to meet. Expectations get overturned, and goals are what you build from the wreckage.


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